Those little birdies

This is incredible. I was hardly able to hear Josh anymore through the parakeets. I was upset and went for a walk. Someone in our apartment complex has parakeets outside on their balcony so I sat down on their porch steps and recorded not expecting to pick up anything. When I listened back just now I heard him weakly whisper "don't worry I will be returning. Until then I'm with you during the day and in your dreams at night when you sleep." I'm just totally amazed.

Josh said to tell you guys that think the kind of contact that we have and the amount we've had is too extraordinary or impossible to believe. Believe it! Because when you have the kind of love and connection that we have nothing is too extraordinary. Of course being a medium helps too. 😃 but I have to give all of the credit to him as he is the one who learned how to do this and is using all of his energy to communicate with me and stay near me.

Energy

The latest update for anyone interested. The last I heard from Josh yesterday in a weak msg was that he will return again strong when he can.  That he's conserving his energy in a sort of powered down state. Until then it's no use for him to keep talking when I can barely hear him and he can barely hear me. He's so weak he can't even hear my thoughts at this point. He said he goes back to his side at night when I sleep and can be with him there and he returns to be with me during the day but can't interact until his energy returns. I'm sad and don't know what to do to help him accept be patient and wait and know that he's with me even though he can't interact with me right now. It's very difficult after all that communication and interaction that we had to not have it now. I guess I expected too much of him. I thought he had unlimited energy to expend on this side with me and now I see how wrong I was.

How to obtain EVP messages

It's different for everyone. Some use the Wavepad app on their smartphone some use the Audacity program on their pc or laptop. You record directly with the wavepad with Audacity you use any digital recorder and transfer the file to the audacity.  Or you can record directly on the Audacity too. As for background sounds. People use water, fan, parakeets, crickets, cats meowing or gibberish. Pretty much anything you can think of. Some even use foreign languages. They need some kind of background sound to form words with. They have to learn also so if there's someone you want to connect with then tell them to learn. Braden teaches this in the big circle but there's many who teach it there. As for you don't give up. This takes time for both them and you to connect. You have to play around with the settings on the Wavepad and audacity to learn how it works. Whispers are very soft in the beginning and hard to discern. It takes hours to go over one 5 minute recording. In time you'll begin to hear them better, being a medium helps too. If you aren't or aren't sure if you are there are ways to enhance your natural abilities.
I've also recorded a voice video and it's on my YouTube channel you can find a link to it in one of the posts here on the blog.

The dance

It's just the most beautiful thing I had to share it. I played some slow dance songs that are special for Josh and I. I began to dance, slowly with my eyes closed swaying to the music. I could feel him and could see him young like he is now. His arms were around me, I ran my hands over my body up and down, feeling as if it were his hands on me as I danced. It felt so spiritual and beautiful. When the songs ended I recorded and asked him if he could see me. He answered "yes I can see you, when you were dancing I was there dancing with you." guys I'm crying like a baby right now. This stuff, It's just very emotional.

He's back

Some things I've learned from Josh today. He ran low on energy because he was staying with me day and night and not returning there. Now he's begun to return there at night when I'm asleep and stay here with me during the day. I record all day. He reads my mind and answers my questions without me speaking a word. He tells me he's standing right beside me when I'm recording. He says we can have eternity together there if we want it. He says we can come back here and have full lifetimes together here also. He also told me that he can still see me even when he's back there. I told him that some people think I'm crazy or making this all up and he got very angry and told me not to worry about those people, it's just that they don't understand yet. So I'm thinking maybe the ones that do understand and know this is all real are more "evolved consciously " than the ones who don't. I'm so thankful for the gift he's given me.

Sad tonight

I'm pretty upset tonight. Josh and I have been in constant touch through the EVP every day for two weeks. He said he was trying to stay until our birthday which is tomorrow. I made a cake for us and he said he made one there the same as mine at the same time I was making mine. Today he said he's very tired and low on energy and that he had to go and rest and get better. He said he was going to learn more while he's away and he will be back. But he didn't say when he'd be back again. How much time does it take to recharge? I'm upset with myself for running him down and not realizing he was running low.

New messages from Josh.

Josh told me that when I'm making our birthday cake Wednesday that he will be making one over there, and that he can taste and eat it too. He said he already has the cake pan and cake mix ready. I asked him also if he can hear me talking to him all the time and he said he can except when his energy becomes low he goes back there to recharge and comes back to me again. I asked if he could read my mind and if we can talk to each other with our minds and he said yes we can. I asked if we are ever alone so we can be intimate and he said during the day my grandparents and dad are with us so no we can't be but at night when I'm asleep I go to him and we are then. This is so wonderful! This is the best birthday ever!! He has given me such a gift. This stuff is totally real guys!!

Message from Josh

These are the messages I've channeled from Josh psychically they  just flow through me  because of our connection. He tells me how much he loves me, with all his heart, always and forever. That he will never leave me and that he reaches me with his mind. That he's here always, quietly watching me. He tells me he is with me all the time. That he protects me. That he's with me all night long while I sleep. He tells me that he touches me with his energy. He tells me that he's living with his best friend Jason's Dad waiting for me to get there. He said that when I sleep at night I'm there with him even though I don't remember and when I'm there I'm young again too like him. He told me that our dog Jasper is with him. He told me that he didn't know Harambe has crossed over until he got there and he didn't know why. That when I cross over we will do all the things we want to do. He tells me he's in the light and waiting for me to get there. He tells me that he can do multiple things and still be with me but to conserve his energy he's only staying with me and not multitasking. He tells me that my parents live in marathon in the Keys, and that he's seen my dad and Grandparents too. He tells me that he's listening and learning. He tells me that time just passes there. He runs low on energy at times and has to recharge and conserve it. He says he's sorry and ashamed for the way that he left and for the things he did in his life here. He also has forgiven me and tells me how beautiful he thinks I am to him and tells me he's staying with me forever. He tells me that when he wants to do something there he just pushes open his mind then when it's pushed open he does whatever and whenever he wants. When I get insecure and have doubts and feel sorry for myself that I can't see or feel him, and when I say that he doesn't know what it's like to be the one left behind he says "my love stop that! I am here, I am always with you and you are with me. He has told me he's 27 again, light and thin. He says he loves candy. He told me he'd be with me when I got my butterfly tattoo protecting and teasing me. He says he can reach me with his mind, and he can live with the other part of his mind. (Meaning that he can be with me and do other things too) he told me he can read my mind and I can hear him too. Telepathy is their natural means of communication. When I asked him if it's OK to take my life to get over there quickly, He said That is most definitely not a good question and Do not do not ever take my life, He said don't ever ever ever take my life! He told me that if I did that I wouldnt  go into the light right away and he wouldn't be able to see me. He said he's going to spend an entire lifetime with me. All of these things he has told me in our recordings and I  my mind through telepathy. He is truly amazing. I love him more than words could ever express. Believe it this is all true and you can't escape the reality of it. I told him some people think I'm crazy and he said not to worry about that it's just that they aren't ready yet and they can't possibly begin to understand.

Butterfly tattoo

I got a Butterfly tattoo today on my left wrist for my and Josh's birthday.

Sunday butterfly visit

This morning I asked Josh for a butterfly visit and he brought me this

beautiful swallowtail. It flew around me and landed on my hand and it even let me pet it.

YouTube Channel for EVP Clips

Link to YouTube Channel  I use Wavepad or audacity to record and edit them. I use different natural background noise such as fans, water running the wind, the ocean waves, toilet flushing, birds chirping, dog barking, cat meowing,  sometimes quiet too. White noise such as static, any type of "dirty noise" that he can use to come through. 

The butterfly

I can't believe I forgot to post about one of the most beautiful things Josh has done for me. He sent me a monarch butterfly it stayed with me the whole day and overnight. Then it passed away. I have it preserved in a riker box. I cried so hard that the butterfly had to die for him to give me this gift. But I was told, the butterfly passed right back to him and will be reborn here again. Beautiful!

Last photo

Josh and I last photo 2 years ago.

My next book.

Another Wednesday

I've been so busy lately learning to record EVP from Josh. Not as easy as it seems. I record for a minute or two in the bathroom in the mornings when I'm brushing my hair and washing my face. I ask questions. Then I have to listen to it on an app on my smartphone called Wavepad. I listen for responses. If I hear any that are clear to me I isolate it on the Wavepad then amplify it, run a high pass filter then slow it down just a tiny bit. I have been getting some amazing ones from him. I want to post them here but for some reason this blog doesn't let me post photos or audio clips. Sucks but hopefully I'll figure it out. Tata

Labor day

Holidays don't mean much to me anymore they haven't for years. Most of them are just irritating because too many things are closed and it interferes with my schedule. I've received many more evp messages from Josh in my recordings. I wish I could post them here on my blog but I'm not able to. I have them kept in my Wavepad. Today finally cooled off a bit here in San Diego. It's cloudy. I've asked for a butterfly but with it being cloudy not sure if any will be around. Josh uses his energy to manipulate the butterfly. He's not the actual butterfly. I feel he visits me pretty much every night in my dreams now. He wants me to start wearing his tee shirt instead of keeping it under my pillow trying to preserve his scent in it. The scent is fading. It's almost gone and for some reason this hurts so much. I think it's because his scent on that tee shirt was his last human connection to me that ever will be. This tears my heart out and I don't know why.

After midnight

Interesting I didn't think to post this until I was talking with a friend about EVP,  does anyone remember the big circle from the calling earth video? I'm friends with Vicki Talbot and her Son Braden is there and she got a lot of communication from him by EVP. "Josh led me to her" Then a month ago she mentioned someone over there said there was a Josh there. We didn't know if it was MY Josh until Josh confirmed he's with Braden over there and Braden confirmed this for Vicki it's just amazing. :) Josh is learning from Braden and the big circle how to become a strong communicator through ITC and EVP this is an important way that others can have contact and communicate with their loved ones.

5months

Today is 5months that Josh passed from this life into the next. I am sad and I do miss him. Even though I know he's happy and well and still with me in ways he wasn't when he was still here walking this earth I still miss him. Time passes so quickly, the years and months fly by. My Grandmother passed in the late 90s my Grandfather in 2005 my Dad last year a few days before father's day, his mother in January and Josh, 5 months ago today. They are all with me but I miss being able to pick up the phone and hear their voices. Today is a sad day for me. I'm feeling all the loss, it's like a big weight on my heart.

I asked Josh for cabbage white butterflies today and got them. They flew around me and one landed on me.

All I know is that once you have had personal and individual experiences with your loved ones from the other side it changes you. You are not the same ever again. At least for me this has been true. I don't feel the same. I feel I'm not really fully in this life on this earth anymore. I'm already on the other side more than I am here. That's how I feel. My hearts just not into this world anymore.

Happy Friday

I'm exhausted but in a good way. I feel as if I'm living between this world and the afterlife. I can't even begin to describe the feeling. I Had a nice dream visit from Josh last night and a few butterflies this morning. Also a few more evp. He is trying so hard to communicate with me and it's not just for me. I feel it's research from their side to ours and the more that we can help them connect to us the more progress will be made. I wish I was going to the afterlife symposium in Arizona this month. If I was up to it I would have went. There will be some amazing things discussed at this conference.

I was reminded of another experience I had a few months ago. My dog Snow who is my absolute heart dog. She's 3 and honestly I don't know what I'd have done without her. She is pretty much what I live for on this earth. She was pooping blood one morning and vomiting. I was so worried. She had a vet appointment and I was out on the grass with her before we were to leave to the vet. Suddenly I was surrounded by butterflies. They flew around me, landed on me. I knew in that moment my loved ones were coming through to comfort and support me.